TO LIVE IS JUST TO FALL ASLEEP.TO DIE IS TO AWAKEN

that we are more of the same than i ever realized…there’s more to come in time. It’ll be your turn to know. I’ll be there when you need me, it’s all i can do. I won’t walk away. 

There was 3 but her mind drifted away to somewhere else, so i deal with the two that decided to stay and it’s coming to an end soon :)

I wanted to cry today.Spending time with my cousins feeling all good inside. It was tears of joy and happiness that i wanted to let out. It’s such a warm exciting feeling that i can really explain but with a sense of humbleness and serenity. I feel good :)

It’s been such long road. I remember when i met you i was so sour. All i could care was myself. All i was ever raised to do what is take care of myself. Life got hard and i shut everything out. You never once encouraged me to do anything but to do well in school. You know our group was special. We had potential. A bunch of day dreamers. Dreaming about being the next big thing. We just wanted to be happy. God how i hated the attention you got. How you always smiled at everything and where so forgiving no matter how people treated you. I thought you where spoil. I thought you had it easy your whole life. It wasn’t true your pain was a lot greater than mine. Yet you never let that hatred consume you. You just never showed it. You never cared less about your image perceived by others. You lived your life determined to prove something to everybody. A lot of people think i’m always happy, that i’m too gullible and they say that wait till you get your heart broken. The truth is i try not to show it, i lie about it. Why because it’s not how we are, you are. I’ve always asked myself what would you do. You would do the right thing. Never once would you say what you are, for you don’t. Your just you, no words can explain it. You would never tease anybody or put anybody down. You where to focus on yourself. Seek knowledge because that’s where you find peace and an exit from this darkness. I’ll never not care about people. I always be there cause that’s what you taught me. I’ll seek happiness because you always do. I’ll apologize for the little things because the little things do matter. I’ll take care of my friends. I’ll take care of myself and make sure i’m happy, because a damaged person can’t take care of anybody else. 

There’s a disturbance in the force. Things are out of place and not right. Keeping to myself these coming days. 

To have so many doors open…

Fast you’ll end up losing if you don’t